I’ve been a very silent blogger for these last few months, and I am sorry for that. Hopefully what I share here will explain my silence and provide a little something to look forward to. I have been busy at school (nothing new this time of year), and also busy with CIW and TCFF actions. Just last month I organized and helped lead a Prayer Vigil at a new Publix store opening in my area, and also created a little “Fair Food performance piece” for a Chautauqua at the Ground Floor Farm’s Spring Festival. All that writing & organizing was time consuming, but that’s not why I’ve been absent from blogging. I’ve been away from blogging because I’ve been discerning a new path for my life.
Discernment is relatively new for me. In 2008 I was in discernment, but was unfamiliar with what discernment truly meant. I had often heard God calling me to serve in one way or another, but usually found some way to ignore the call, always feeling unfulfilled in the end. So, after a year of prayer and study with my mentor Sr. Helen Dompierre, OP, in 2009 I became an Associate of the Adrian Dominican Sisters. For the last several years I’ve been feeling angry, overwhelmed, unsupported, and unfulfilled at my job. Although I know I make a difference in the lives of so many children, the pace, the stress, and the politics has been killing me physically, emotionally, and (most importantly) spiritually. In August of 2014 I again entered a period of discernment triggered by a series of disappointments, new road-blocks, and a few possibilities. This time, however, I was having difficulty hearing God’s voice. I thought I had it figured out, but when I didn’t get the job that I thought God was leading me to, I felt depressed and defeated. After a week of feeling sorry for myself, I regrouped and started to search for a bolder, more adventurous social justice path. That’s when I discovered St. Francis School in New Mexico. Quite literally, I searched for and found “a road less traveled” (Frost and Peck).
The more I looked, the more I prayed, the more I contemplated, the more I realized that this school and these children where calling me to come to NM! So, I inquired with the principal, sent in my resume, and had my first phone interview in over 20 years. She loved me! My future boss, Madeline (I love her, too!), asked me what was giving me pause, so we talked a while more. She said that she was going to send me an acceptance letter immediately. I said I had some more praying to do. [I also had to talk to my mother!] After 3 days I sent in my letter of acceptance. So, at the end of July I will be leaving for Lumberton, New Mexico to teach art, and (probably) language arts, and social studies at St. Francis School.
The school is 3 miles off the Jicarilla Apache Nation lands, and the majority of the students are Apache. There are many Hispanic children, too, so I am brushing up on my Spanish! I don’t know if this is where I am meant to be for the next 20 years, or if this is just a stepping stone toward something else. What I do know is that I am excited to truly follow the Gospel message, and serve among the poorest of the poor. I look forward to sharing my gifts with the children, and I look forward to learning even more from them.
I got a new computer that will serve me well in the coming years. I hope to be able to post pictures from the “Land of Enchantment,” and blog about my experiences once or twice a month. I will be in the middle of nowhere, and I am told that internet, cell phone service, electricity, and H2O are “sketchy” at times (OMGosh!!!!!), so keep me in your thoughts & prayers even if I occasionally go “off the grid!”
I want to give a nod to Skywalker Storyteller. Over three months ago she began a series called “100 Days of Gratitude.” I decided to participate, downloaded the journal and began receiving daily gratitude questions. I never commented on any of the questions, but always read them and thought about them. As I was discerning my new path in life, Skywalker, your questions became a kind of life-line to what really matters in life. Here’s my comment on this experience: I am grateful to you for your commitment to fulfillment, happiness, and balance in life! In the final days of “100 Days of Gratitude” I realized how grateful I am for the many gifts I have, and how grateful I am for my trust in God to take this leap of faith. Questions #94 (thinking creatively/outside the box) and #96 (helping others/acts of service/helping others be happy) were especially timely as I made the decision to sell my belongings and go to serve the children at St. Francis School. Thank you!
It’s time to pack now!